New Beginnings! I love them! There is so much hope. So much anticipation. To think that Jesus would give us another day to wake up and start over. His word says that His blessings are new every day. How awesome to serve a Savior who loves us. He wants us to make our own decisions. He doesn't want us to be little puppets. He is also right there when we have decided that those decisions weren't exactly the right ones to make. That kind of grace is what I need every day in my life. I am so quick to say words (and if I don't say them I JUST might think them) that are not beneficial to others. I try not to do this often but you better believe that if I think you are wrong, I will let you know. That's not necessarilly a bad thing but I am just really starting to learn that its all in the way you say things. I work with a great group of people whom I dearly love that teach me these lessons everyday. Every person you meet can teach you something about your life and it is up to you whether to learn the lesson. Anyway, I digress.
I am so excited to begin a new year! I will be 30 this year!!! I can't believe it!! I never thought I would be this age. I certainly didn't expect to be where I am at this point in my life. As I sit here and think about it, I wouldn't have it any other way! I have been so blessed and I have been led down exactly the right path even though I have been positive that it was the wrong path several times! I have learned so much about myself this past year. I just wish it wouldn't have taken me so long. :) This new year will be a great one! A fresh start. I hope whoever reads this blog would know that I am praying for you. I hope that means something to you. Please know that "there is no God like our God!" There have been many great leaders and philosophers. They have said great things, spoken eloquently, and deservingly made the history books. Yet, there is only one who is no longer in the grave. That is Jesus. He created you. And me. Please let Him change your life. I hope that you would have a great new year!
Tuesday, December 29, 2009
Sunday, December 27, 2009
Cornucopia
First, I would like to say that it is very important that I never go to bed at 9:00 at night again. I should know that I will wake up at 3 a.m. and won't be able to go back to sleep. But, I wasn't feeling too good and knew that I had to sleep off whatever illness was getting ready to take over my body. I have decided to post something but really have nothing special to write. I am just going to put down what is in my thoughts right now! O goodness!! These thoughts are not limited to me but could also include those around me...Here goes my thought pattern in the wee hours:
I am really, really tired but I should go to the gym.
Why does my brother have to stay up all night. He needs a life.
I am so glad they got engaged.
I really want to go to Hawaii.
Can't wait for my vacation next month.
Hope we can go skiing in Feb.
Should have been nicer to that person today.
Shouldn't have said that. It did not come across right.
Need to finish that book so I can start another one.
Need to get out of this town quick!
Can't wait for Charleston next week for NYE
Mixed emotions about my job.
I love the movie He's just not that into you. Watched it 2 nights ago but going to watch it in a few.
I need to stay in better touch with her. She always calls first. Need to be a better friend.
CANNOT believe that I forgot to get a Christmas present for that person.
Love my friends at work.
Why won't this guy get the hint? I'm just not that into him! :)
Why is it that when you are FINALLY interested in someone that they don't have the same idea? And the ones that are interested in you might as well take a hike.
Granny always says "men are like streetcars. one comes along every five minutes." That's philosphy! so true!
Sad that when a much older guy marries a younger girl (like 10 years) that she obviously hangs on his every word but he doesn't show that much emotion or love to her. There is always one person who loves more in the relationship.
Think that I have finally gotten over my hangup about dating younger guys. They are more fun.
I wonder what kind of career I could have that would help others and make a lot of money. An interpreter for the deaf would be a good idea. Such a beautiful language and you could truly help people that were in need.
I think I want to join the Peace Corp.
Want to take Reese to the aquarium.
Need to buy new contacts before the year end.
Need to learn another language.
Need a travelling buddy.
So happy for my friends that are starting their careers.
I miss my cousin!
Need to write thank you notes! Glad that I have my stationery.
I need to go to sleep so I can wake up for church.
So that is it. Pretty random stuff. It is early, though! I still have the whole day to think of more.
Good night. Or should I say, Good Morning?!
I am really, really tired but I should go to the gym.
Why does my brother have to stay up all night. He needs a life.
I am so glad they got engaged.
I really want to go to Hawaii.
Can't wait for my vacation next month.
Hope we can go skiing in Feb.
Should have been nicer to that person today.
Shouldn't have said that. It did not come across right.
Need to finish that book so I can start another one.
Need to get out of this town quick!
Can't wait for Charleston next week for NYE
Mixed emotions about my job.
I love the movie He's just not that into you. Watched it 2 nights ago but going to watch it in a few.
I need to stay in better touch with her. She always calls first. Need to be a better friend.
CANNOT believe that I forgot to get a Christmas present for that person.
Love my friends at work.
Why won't this guy get the hint? I'm just not that into him! :)
Why is it that when you are FINALLY interested in someone that they don't have the same idea? And the ones that are interested in you might as well take a hike.
Granny always says "men are like streetcars. one comes along every five minutes." That's philosphy! so true!
Sad that when a much older guy marries a younger girl (like 10 years) that she obviously hangs on his every word but he doesn't show that much emotion or love to her. There is always one person who loves more in the relationship.
Think that I have finally gotten over my hangup about dating younger guys. They are more fun.
I wonder what kind of career I could have that would help others and make a lot of money. An interpreter for the deaf would be a good idea. Such a beautiful language and you could truly help people that were in need.
I think I want to join the Peace Corp.
Want to take Reese to the aquarium.
Need to buy new contacts before the year end.
Need to learn another language.
Need a travelling buddy.
So happy for my friends that are starting their careers.
I miss my cousin!
Need to write thank you notes! Glad that I have my stationery.
I need to go to sleep so I can wake up for church.
So that is it. Pretty random stuff. It is early, though! I still have the whole day to think of more.
Good night. Or should I say, Good Morning?!
Tuesday, December 22, 2009
Cinderella
I love music. I love the lyrics the best. One of my fave songs is "Insensitive" by Jann Arden. I totally know exactly where that song is coming from and have lived it a few times. Just to give you some of the lyrics (ok all of them!):
How do you cool your lips after a summer's kiss?
How do you rid the sweat after the body bliss?
How do you turn your eyes from the romantic glare?
How do you block the sound of a voice you'd know anywhere?
Oh I really should have known by the time you drove me home
By the vagueness in your eyes, your casual good-byes.
By the chill in your embrace and the expression on your face
That told me maybe you might have some advice to give
On how to be Insensitive.
How do you numb your skin after the warmest touch?
How do you slow your blood after the body rush?
How do you free your soul after you've found a friend?
How do you teach your heart it's a crime to fall in love again?
Oh you probably won't remember me, it's probably ancient history
I'm one of the chosen few who went ahead and fell for you.
I'm out of vogue, I'm out of touch, I fell too fast, I feel too much.
I thought that you might have some advice to give
On how to be Insensitive.
Oh I really should have known by the time you drove me home,
By the vagueness in your eyes, your casual good-byes.
By the chill in your embrace and the expression on your face
That told me maybe you might have some advice to give
On how to be Insensitive.
How do you cool your lips after a summer's kiss?
How do you rid the sweat after the body bliss?
How do you turn your eyes from the romantic glare?
How do you block the sound of a voice you'd know anywhere?
Oh I really should have known by the time you drove me home,
By the vagueness in your eyes, your casual good-byes.
By the chill in your embrace and the expression on your face
That told me maybe you might have some advice to give
On how to be Insensitive.
How do you numb your skin after the warmest touch?
How do you slow your blood after the body rush?
How do you free your soul after you've found a friend?
How do you teach your heart it's a crime to fall in love again?
Oh you probably won't remember me, it's probably ancient history,
I'm one of the chosen few who went ahead and fell for you.
I'm out of vogue, I'm out of touch, I fell too fast, I feel too much.
I thought that you might have some advice to give
On how to be Insensitive.
Oh I really should have known by the time you drove me home
By the vagueness in your eyes, your casual good-byes.
By the chill in your embrace and the expression on your face
That told me maybe you might have some advice to give
On how to be Insensitive.
Relationships. Everyone wants to know about them. Everyone wants to read about them. Everyday people ask me if I am dating, who I am dating...children? married? divorced? Everyone is so interested in relationships in general. So that is why I am writing this blog. It makes for better reading! :) It's what we thrive on. After all, it IS what makes the world go round. I recently changed my facebook status to "in a relationship". I have done this before but did not expect the turn out from this last relationship status. Calls, texts, emails, Im's, and voicemails flooded me for a few days. I didn't realize how much people were interested in my love life until now. Truthfully, they probably aren't interested in me just the idea of a new relationship. Of course, I can't say this about all of them ,but some, anyway. Its the beginning of wonderful dreams, hopes, and expectations that maybe life will turn into a fairy tale of sorts for SOMEBODY! The truth is that we are all human. We will let down the other person and be let down several times in any relationship. So why do we believe in fairy tales if we know they will never completely come true? I think that the idea of a modern day relationship is such chaos. The older I get, the harder it is to find a man who will truly respect me. It seemed that when I was younger, relationships were so easy. One Word: JADED! ( Not me, of course. Them! :) Men, I believe, are in the same predicament. Women are so independent ( I know, because I am one of those women) and it is hard to let the man be who he is in a relationship. I think it is imperative for each to be who they were meant to be without overstepping the boundaries of the other party. Women should be able to speak their mind and be who they are with the understanding that a man needs to be a man and truly wants to take care of a woman. This shouldn't make a woman feel inferior but rather loved and protected. I can think back to relationships where I didn't want to be taken care of because I was "woman enough" to take care of myself. Hind sight is 20/20 and I now can see how much that person loved me. Even as I am writing this, I realize how old fashioned this sounds but I really do believe that it makes for the best relationships. I didn't say I did it! I don't believe that Cinderella was completely from a woman's point of view. I believe it was also from the man's point of view as well. A man was made to be a protector and provider, not to be talked down to by a woman. I definetely don't believe that a man should talk down to a woman and I see it every single day!! I don't believe that all men want to be in a relationship. Many couldn't care less about them. One day they will though. Hopefully. Life is too short. This is one reason I love marriages that have lasted 30 years or more. I admire the dedication, commitment, and love that hopefully still lasts in these marriages.
So I am not real sure what my song had to do with this post. Other than I love it!!
~ciao
How do you cool your lips after a summer's kiss?
How do you rid the sweat after the body bliss?
How do you turn your eyes from the romantic glare?
How do you block the sound of a voice you'd know anywhere?
Oh I really should have known by the time you drove me home
By the vagueness in your eyes, your casual good-byes.
By the chill in your embrace and the expression on your face
That told me maybe you might have some advice to give
On how to be Insensitive.
How do you numb your skin after the warmest touch?
How do you slow your blood after the body rush?
How do you free your soul after you've found a friend?
How do you teach your heart it's a crime to fall in love again?
Oh you probably won't remember me, it's probably ancient history
I'm one of the chosen few who went ahead and fell for you.
I'm out of vogue, I'm out of touch, I fell too fast, I feel too much.
I thought that you might have some advice to give
On how to be Insensitive.
Oh I really should have known by the time you drove me home,
By the vagueness in your eyes, your casual good-byes.
By the chill in your embrace and the expression on your face
That told me maybe you might have some advice to give
On how to be Insensitive.
How do you cool your lips after a summer's kiss?
How do you rid the sweat after the body bliss?
How do you turn your eyes from the romantic glare?
How do you block the sound of a voice you'd know anywhere?
Oh I really should have known by the time you drove me home,
By the vagueness in your eyes, your casual good-byes.
By the chill in your embrace and the expression on your face
That told me maybe you might have some advice to give
On how to be Insensitive.
How do you numb your skin after the warmest touch?
How do you slow your blood after the body rush?
How do you free your soul after you've found a friend?
How do you teach your heart it's a crime to fall in love again?
Oh you probably won't remember me, it's probably ancient history,
I'm one of the chosen few who went ahead and fell for you.
I'm out of vogue, I'm out of touch, I fell too fast, I feel too much.
I thought that you might have some advice to give
On how to be Insensitive.
Oh I really should have known by the time you drove me home
By the vagueness in your eyes, your casual good-byes.
By the chill in your embrace and the expression on your face
That told me maybe you might have some advice to give
On how to be Insensitive.
Relationships. Everyone wants to know about them. Everyone wants to read about them. Everyday people ask me if I am dating, who I am dating...children? married? divorced? Everyone is so interested in relationships in general. So that is why I am writing this blog. It makes for better reading! :) It's what we thrive on. After all, it IS what makes the world go round. I recently changed my facebook status to "in a relationship". I have done this before but did not expect the turn out from this last relationship status. Calls, texts, emails, Im's, and voicemails flooded me for a few days. I didn't realize how much people were interested in my love life until now. Truthfully, they probably aren't interested in me just the idea of a new relationship. Of course, I can't say this about all of them ,but some, anyway. Its the beginning of wonderful dreams, hopes, and expectations that maybe life will turn into a fairy tale of sorts for SOMEBODY! The truth is that we are all human. We will let down the other person and be let down several times in any relationship. So why do we believe in fairy tales if we know they will never completely come true? I think that the idea of a modern day relationship is such chaos. The older I get, the harder it is to find a man who will truly respect me. It seemed that when I was younger, relationships were so easy. One Word: JADED! ( Not me, of course. Them! :) Men, I believe, are in the same predicament. Women are so independent ( I know, because I am one of those women) and it is hard to let the man be who he is in a relationship. I think it is imperative for each to be who they were meant to be without overstepping the boundaries of the other party. Women should be able to speak their mind and be who they are with the understanding that a man needs to be a man and truly wants to take care of a woman. This shouldn't make a woman feel inferior but rather loved and protected. I can think back to relationships where I didn't want to be taken care of because I was "woman enough" to take care of myself. Hind sight is 20/20 and I now can see how much that person loved me. Even as I am writing this, I realize how old fashioned this sounds but I really do believe that it makes for the best relationships. I didn't say I did it! I don't believe that Cinderella was completely from a woman's point of view. I believe it was also from the man's point of view as well. A man was made to be a protector and provider, not to be talked down to by a woman. I definetely don't believe that a man should talk down to a woman and I see it every single day!! I don't believe that all men want to be in a relationship. Many couldn't care less about them. One day they will though. Hopefully. Life is too short. This is one reason I love marriages that have lasted 30 years or more. I admire the dedication, commitment, and love that hopefully still lasts in these marriages.
So I am not real sure what my song had to do with this post. Other than I love it!!
~ciao
Monday, December 21, 2009
Saturday, December 19, 2009
A Complete Beautiful Mess
If people are around me on any given day they can be sure that they will hear me say a "hot mess" at least 10 times. I use it to describe any type of drama, any bad attitude (including mine), troubles, mistakes that are made, and just really anything in general. I have given this term to my coworkers as well. They use it just as lovingly as I do. As I was working out at the gym the other day, I heard a song on the radio with the chorus something to the effect of, "you're a hot mess and I'm falling for you." I would like to think that I gave this band that term also.
I, however, am 100% a hot mess. Just when I think I have gotten something right, I go back 5 steps. I really think that I could have been blonde. I am a total klutz. I can't sing, I can't cook (well actually I can I just don't), I can't budget money well. I run out of gas and end up on the side of the road at least 5 times a year. If I laugh REALLY REALLY hard, I may be prone to snorting. I am very likely to get upset at people right away if I feel they are insulting me. I should just let things ride. I forget to write thank you notes even though I am very very thankful. It takes me tons of times to pass a standardized test. My neck gets very red and splotchy if I am really embarrassed or upset. My most embarrasing date moment is when I upchucked all over my date at the fair ON the ride. Twice. (we still kept dating. what a guy!) One year for a Christmas party, I wore a hair piece in my hair and it fell out on the floor in front of everyone. I knocked the right side mirror off my car and my grandma 's car in less than a month. I think the picture has been made. I am a HOT MESS.
However, one of my favorite verses says that, "I will praise thee, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made; marvellous are thy works and that my soul knoweth well." This is a very hard verse to comprehend when I myself know my shortcomings and failures. (as mentioned above and the worst ones have not been mentioned.) On the other hand, in light of this verse, it is very easy for me to laugh at all the crazy stupid things I do. I didn't make me, Jesus did. He knew about all the crazy things that would happen to me. He knew my struggles, failures, and my successes. In His eyes, I am beautiful and He values me. That is an awesome thing. So no matter the extent of my crazy ways, I choose to think that I am a complete beautiful mess. Beautiful in His eyes and still a mess through mine. (But I do have a lot of fun!)
I, however, am 100% a hot mess. Just when I think I have gotten something right, I go back 5 steps. I really think that I could have been blonde. I am a total klutz. I can't sing, I can't cook (well actually I can I just don't), I can't budget money well. I run out of gas and end up on the side of the road at least 5 times a year. If I laugh REALLY REALLY hard, I may be prone to snorting. I am very likely to get upset at people right away if I feel they are insulting me. I should just let things ride. I forget to write thank you notes even though I am very very thankful. It takes me tons of times to pass a standardized test. My neck gets very red and splotchy if I am really embarrassed or upset. My most embarrasing date moment is when I upchucked all over my date at the fair ON the ride. Twice. (we still kept dating. what a guy!) One year for a Christmas party, I wore a hair piece in my hair and it fell out on the floor in front of everyone. I knocked the right side mirror off my car and my grandma 's car in less than a month. I think the picture has been made. I am a HOT MESS.
However, one of my favorite verses says that, "I will praise thee, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made; marvellous are thy works and that my soul knoweth well." This is a very hard verse to comprehend when I myself know my shortcomings and failures. (as mentioned above and the worst ones have not been mentioned.) On the other hand, in light of this verse, it is very easy for me to laugh at all the crazy stupid things I do. I didn't make me, Jesus did. He knew about all the crazy things that would happen to me. He knew my struggles, failures, and my successes. In His eyes, I am beautiful and He values me. That is an awesome thing. So no matter the extent of my crazy ways, I choose to think that I am a complete beautiful mess. Beautiful in His eyes and still a mess through mine. (But I do have a lot of fun!)
Thursday, December 17, 2009
Thankful Thursday
It is so easy to go day in and day out without giving thanks for our blessings! There is so much to be thankful for!! Many times I have to make myself think positive and then my actions follow. I just want to give a list of little (and big) things that I am thankful for!
~ a roof over my head
~a good job
~a family (no matter how dysfunctional they are at certain times)
~my great friends
~a great church to attend and the freedom to worship
~my blackberry
~the internet...where would we be without it?? still looking for hours through encyclopedias. ugh.
~Gap
~Jessica Simpson and her shoes
~Sascha the Russian Girl who gave me her hair.
~Victoria's Secret
~the 80's
~the 50's
~Country Boys (not redneck! there is a difference)
~dark haired boys. Thank you Jesus!
~Breakups
~movies that come out around Christmas. They are the best!!
~John Mayer
~Regis and Kelly
~true lovin'
~fishing in the peace and quiet
~art museums
~toothpaste
~SPANX!!!
~children who don't scream and holler
~laying out by the pool
~The Christmas Story
~heaters
~contacts
~Paris
~FOOD. love it.
~gyms
~tanning beds.
~David Crowder Band
~couples who have stayed together for 30+ years
~people who are spontaneous and don't think twice if you ask them to do things. People who LOVE to do anything!
This is just a small list of things that I am EXTREMELY grateful for!
I don't know where I would be without them!
~ciao
~ a roof over my head
~a good job
~a family (no matter how dysfunctional they are at certain times)
~my great friends
~a great church to attend and the freedom to worship
~my blackberry
~the internet...where would we be without it?? still looking for hours through encyclopedias. ugh.
~Gap
~Jessica Simpson and her shoes
~Sascha the Russian Girl who gave me her hair.
~Victoria's Secret
~the 80's
~the 50's
~Country Boys (not redneck! there is a difference)
~dark haired boys. Thank you Jesus!
~Breakups
~movies that come out around Christmas. They are the best!!
~John Mayer
~Regis and Kelly
~true lovin'
~fishing in the peace and quiet
~art museums
~toothpaste
~SPANX!!!
~children who don't scream and holler
~laying out by the pool
~The Christmas Story
~heaters
~contacts
~Paris
~FOOD. love it.
~gyms
~tanning beds.
~David Crowder Band
~couples who have stayed together for 30+ years
~people who are spontaneous and don't think twice if you ask them to do things. People who LOVE to do anything!
This is just a small list of things that I am EXTREMELY grateful for!
I don't know where I would be without them!
~ciao
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
What's Love Got To Do With It?
Today has been a long day. I worked all day and then "attempted" to go work out. Actually, I ended up sitting in the parking lot of the gym talking to a friend as he was preparing for a live nativity scene. Anyway, this is beside the point. I went to another friend's house later and we talked for a long while about one of the things that I dread the most-a budget. This year I have learned many things about myself. One of those things is that money is not everything. It can always be made and I should not stress over making it. There is always plenty. (while we live in america) You just have to make it. I have also learned that if you want to save it you have to live below your means. It is so hard to do this when you "love" so many things. Love that shirt, love that dress, love that car, love, love, love!! Actually, "love" has nothing to do with it! Our wants are a far cry from our needs. This is a hard pill for me to swallow. I have been very fortunate to have a father who desires for me to get some of the things I want, but, I have way more than I could ever need OR want. I am slowly trying to learn this lesson everyday. I think about all of the children that I used to visit during the week on our church bus route and all of the many ways that we would minister to those in need while I was in college. Those were the times when I was the happiest. Love truly is about doing for others and not about doing for ourselves. Jesus said that out of faith, hope, and love that the greatest of these is love. How true. I am very blessed to have people placed in my life everyday to help me grow. I work with really great people who encourage me to always be the best that I can be. They give me new insight, new ideas, and tell me when I am wrong. For this, I am thankful. Love is not an object, it's not a feeling, it's a commitment. A commitment to encourage others, grow others, and desire to see others reach the pinnacle of their being. This love is what I strive for. The right kind of love has everything to do with it!
Tuesday, December 15, 2009
MY FIRST BLOG!
This is it! I have always heard about these things but never actually given in to the peer pressure to write. Until now! My friend in Utah convinced me and I think I am going to love it. There is only one problem that I foresee. I cannot write. And I am pretty boring. I cannot imagine that anyone would ever read these...I assume that is the reason for friends. They love you no matter what and will always read your facebook, myspace, and now blogs. They will also tell you if you are being too emotional, too mean, if you are wearing a good outfit, if you are wearing a bad outfit, and just about anything that comes to their mind. I have heard people say that if you have 5 true friends in your life than you are blessed. I can honestly say that I have many more than that. Friends who will be there in a minute if I needed them without question and who will love me till the end. My closest friends are ones that I have been friends with for many, many years. Thankfully, they have seen me through my best and worst times! Everytime I break up with a boy, everytime a boy breaks up with me, when I failed Nursing School, when I passed Business School, family issues, drama, love, and everything that goes on in everybody else's life!
I guess I should start with some things that I am passionate about: God, Love, travel, school, FOOD, culture, Art, and anything that makes me more educated. I want to be smart. I suppose maybe I am in some areas. I love adventure. I want to see the world and do anything the world has to offer. Except drugs and bungee jumping. I have to draw the line somewhere. It's amazing how we live in such a small box and never take time to see what goes on around us. That is why I believe in travel so much. There is so much to do and so many things to see....so many people who live so differently than we do. I want to take in as much as I can in this short life that I live.
Well, this was short. But I am sure that I will have much more to write later.
~Ciao
I guess I should start with some things that I am passionate about: God, Love, travel, school, FOOD, culture, Art, and anything that makes me more educated. I want to be smart. I suppose maybe I am in some areas. I love adventure. I want to see the world and do anything the world has to offer. Except drugs and bungee jumping. I have to draw the line somewhere. It's amazing how we live in such a small box and never take time to see what goes on around us. That is why I believe in travel so much. There is so much to do and so many things to see....so many people who live so differently than we do. I want to take in as much as I can in this short life that I live.
Well, this was short. But I am sure that I will have much more to write later.
~Ciao
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