Tuesday, October 12, 2010

Long Overdue

It has been a while since I have posted...and so much has happened over the last several months but I have forgotten what I should write about at this moment. So there really is no telling what I will write about right now. I have had a very life-changing week. My granny has been ill and we thought we were going to lose her. Actually, I thought we were going to lose her because she got very sick when I stayed with her one night at the hospital. All I could do was pray. Those are the sweetest times in life when you know that Jesus is listening to your prayer. If things didn't turn out how I prayed for them then He still was listening to me!! I have never had anyone close to me pass on so it has been exceptionally hard on me. Thank the Lord she is still here and fighting as she normally does. I have really embraced the fact that life is so short. Nothing else seems to matter except our loved ones. It is imperative that I love everyone and I wish to do so...this is going to be quite a task. However, we are commanded to love the Lord with all of our heart, soul, and mind, and then to love others as our self!

It always seems that when I make great strides in personal areas that I long to improve on...that I take a few steps backwards in areas of my life that I have down to a science. Sometimes we act in ways we shouldn't when we know that those actions are not who we are as a person. I do not like to have anyone upset at me. Then there are times when I know that someone has done me wrong then I do not mind if they are upset at me at all. They are in the wrong. So many times I always want to take the blame, but it doesn't always lie with me. It may not be my problem...it just might be theirs!!

One of the greatest things that I love about myself in my adult life is that I can look at a situation and say, "You know what? That just doesn't work for me." and then move on!! Life is too short to take on someone else's problems or issues. You can only do so much to help someone. So many people want to be in the limelight or the center of everybody else's world. I'll just take being at the center of my own world, thank you! :)